Well, I had a very fun day yesterday. I hung out with some of my friends from college, and together we went to a Greek festival at Saint George's Greek Orthodox Church in Hamilton, NJ. Food, music, art, good company, laughter, dancing (or not), and then dinner at my friend's home all conspired to pass a very pleasant afternoon and evening. Much joy and cheer were had by all of us who attended.
But now I can't help but express that I'm starting to feel nervous (or continuing to). I've been putting in a few different applications. Of course, I'm trying to be creative. And in reality, I've only just begun doing the job search recently. Part of my question is: how do I translate the experiences of my last five years into something that looks good on a résumé and sounds good in an interview?
My journey has been a largely inner one. How do I say in an interview: I've been kicked in the groin? I lost one of the most important people in my life; my religion and even my family broke down; but my whole world opened up to new ideas and possibilities; and I have been looking for reasons to be on this planet......... and not merely as a zombie droning through life obsessively stuffing blind mouthfuls into my flaking corpse flesh, but as an actual living breathing human being self-aware and planet-aware with large aspirations and the means to achieve them. I have been looking for something to live for and strive for, and now I may actually have it.
The only thing I have wanted from life that has never changed: to travel widely and live overseas. That is my mission in life. That is what I am working for. I know that with my own particular talents and traits, I won't be doing it as a musician or as a teacher.
I also know that I need and want a family. I don't always feel like I belong—in any of the groups of which I have been a member, including family, including friends, including classes, including the workplace. But I still want family and friends. Even a hermit does not exist truly alone but in communion with the life of the nature around him—and even in the world he leaves behind.
I also want to have wealth and security. I know that employees are not always valued by their employers, especially when they reach old age. I am not anywhere near that threshold. Time is on my side. But I want to use that time wisely, and to lay the foundations of security for the future. I want good food and cheer and the ability to share these things with the people I care about, whom I know deserve them.
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I wrote the above about 9 hours ago. I'm so tired right now. It was a long day (after a short night). I know I could have been more productive today and could be more productive right now. But I just began the chapter on Daoism in the book I'm reading (God Is Not One, by Stephen Prothero). There is something to be said for "wandering"—it is part of the name of my blog, after all. I had a nice wander this afternoon in the backyard, in the fine drizzle, trampling the wet grass, and admiring the flowers in the garden my mother planted this weekend. I think wandering allows one to find one's purpose in life, especially wandering among nature. It brings out the Entish wisdom of "Don't be hasty." I will arrive at my destination—in time. Sooner, later, does it matter? I don't have to be full of financial assets to to enjoy small pleasures or share them. The important thing is to enjoy them along the way.
But now I can't help but express that I'm starting to feel nervous (or continuing to). I've been putting in a few different applications. Of course, I'm trying to be creative. And in reality, I've only just begun doing the job search recently. Part of my question is: how do I translate the experiences of my last five years into something that looks good on a résumé and sounds good in an interview?
My journey has been a largely inner one. How do I say in an interview: I've been kicked in the groin? I lost one of the most important people in my life; my religion and even my family broke down; but my whole world opened up to new ideas and possibilities; and I have been looking for reasons to be on this planet......... and not merely as a zombie droning through life obsessively stuffing blind mouthfuls into my flaking corpse flesh, but as an actual living breathing human being self-aware and planet-aware with large aspirations and the means to achieve them. I have been looking for something to live for and strive for, and now I may actually have it.
The only thing I have wanted from life that has never changed: to travel widely and live overseas. That is my mission in life. That is what I am working for. I know that with my own particular talents and traits, I won't be doing it as a musician or as a teacher.
I also know that I need and want a family. I don't always feel like I belong—in any of the groups of which I have been a member, including family, including friends, including classes, including the workplace. But I still want family and friends. Even a hermit does not exist truly alone but in communion with the life of the nature around him—and even in the world he leaves behind.
I also want to have wealth and security. I know that employees are not always valued by their employers, especially when they reach old age. I am not anywhere near that threshold. Time is on my side. But I want to use that time wisely, and to lay the foundations of security for the future. I want good food and cheer and the ability to share these things with the people I care about, whom I know deserve them.
...
I wrote the above about 9 hours ago. I'm so tired right now. It was a long day (after a short night). I know I could have been more productive today and could be more productive right now. But I just began the chapter on Daoism in the book I'm reading (God Is Not One, by Stephen Prothero). There is something to be said for "wandering"—it is part of the name of my blog, after all. I had a nice wander this afternoon in the backyard, in the fine drizzle, trampling the wet grass, and admiring the flowers in the garden my mother planted this weekend. I think wandering allows one to find one's purpose in life, especially wandering among nature. It brings out the Entish wisdom of "Don't be hasty." I will arrive at my destination—in time. Sooner, later, does it matter? I don't have to be full of financial assets to to enjoy small pleasures or share them. The important thing is to enjoy them along the way.
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